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Bellz ([personal profile] veetvoojagig) wrote in [community profile] sid_guardian2025-08-26 09:55 pm

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Just joined the fandom and community, and wanted to share what i spent today working on! I plan on messing around with the hands more and inking it properly still, but I like how it's coming along!

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The Gauche in the Machine ([personal profile] china_shop) wrote in [community profile] fan_writers2025-08-27 11:39 am

Is sharing part of your creative process?

I'm not a frequent tumblr user, but I just happened across this post by [tumblr.com profile] exhuastedpigeon:
Realizing the writing doesn't have to be done alone and is often more fun and more engaging when you're doing it with friends is a life changing experience.

I don't mean co-writing either. I mean having a friend or two who you talk through plot ideas with, who you bounce ideas off of, who you trust to tell you if something doesn't work.

Nothing is created in a vacuum and nothing can be created alone. Sharing drafts and ideas is a vital part of the creative process and it's a really fun part too.


As someone who mostly writes "black box" style, this naturally made me want to make a poll. ;-)

Poll #33538 Interactivity
Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 31


Which of these do you most often find helpful?

View Answers

preliminary brainstorming with one or more people
14 (45.2%)

preliminary cheering on
14 (45.2%)

on-going or mid-story brainstorming
14 (45.2%)

on-going cheering on (enthusiastic first readers, no critique)
12 (38.7%)

on-going cheering on (talking about how it's going, maybe sharing teaser excerpts)
14 (45.2%)

asking questions about canon / characterisation
13 (41.9%)

in-progress / partial-draft beta
6 (19.4%)

my writing style is a black box, I don't tell anyone anything until I have a draft
8 (25.8%)

completed-draft beta
17 (54.8%)

other
3 (9.7%)

Which of these do you do for your friends?

View Answers

preliminary brainstorming
19 (67.9%)

preliminary cheering on
22 (78.6%)

on-going or mid-story brainstorming
14 (50.0%)

on-going cheering on (reading along and being enthusiastic)
13 (46.4%)

on-going cheering on (just hearing about it, maybe with excerpts)
20 (71.4%)

answering questions about canon / characterisation
16 (57.1%)

in-progress / partial-draft beta
12 (42.9%)

completed-draft beta
15 (53.6%)

other
4 (14.3%)



ETA: My arms are mad at me, so I might be slow to answer comments. *sigh* Please feel free to chat among yourselves!!
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Ysabet ([personal profile] umadoshi) wrote2025-08-26 03:24 pm
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Clarification about the actors in Glass Heart

The other day, my phrasing when I tried to describe what the Glass Heart actors are doing was not at all as clear as it should've been!

So: It's not that the main cast in this show are faking playing the instruments. It's that none of them are musicians at all, and they learned to play the specific material for the show well enough to visually pass not only as being able to play but as being very good (the male lead is explicitly a musical genius), with full shots of them doing bits of it rather than having body doubles or clever cuts or anything, AND doing some pretty heavy-lifting acting at the same time. (What I don't know is whether their performances pass as looking professional to actual professional musicians, but one of the supporting cast is an actual singer and seems pretty impressed with it.)

The making-of feature I linked in my last post is specifically about that aspect of the show/their performances.
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shadaras ([personal profile] shadaras) wrote2025-08-26 08:51 am

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Did you know: If you don't keep up with the internet for a couple days, it takes even more days to catch up again?

(I'm not back home yet; I fly back tomorrow.)

(Tomorrow will also mark 5 years on T. I keep a note in my phone calendar about that because I think it's nice knowing the exact day instead of what I remember off the top of my head, which is "Late August, 2020".)

But hey, I've got some time now, let's write up some stuff about how travel's gone/what I've done!

(if you are here for aikido ramblings, they're hidden in the california section under a second cut [details tag] xD)

up in oregon )

down in calfornia )

Really once I go back to MA the thing I am dreading most is dragging myself back onto the sleep cycle necessitated by work (offline by 9:30pm, up by 5:30am which means I wake up at 4:30am). I've finally settled back into what's really the natural habit of my body: get offline at 10-something, fall asleep at like 11pm, wake up around 6am.

But hey once I'm home I get to cook my own food and see my cat and be in my space again, which will be very nice thanks.
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alias_sqbr ([personal profile] alias_sqbr) wrote2025-08-26 08:42 pm
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Martha Wells/Murderbot book bundle

Martha Wells' Murderbot & More is about $30AUD (so $20USDish?) for a whole heap of her books. It's available for the next 18 days. I had no trouble downloading them as DRM free ebooks in Australia.
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Denise ([staff profile] denise) wrote in [site community profile] dw_news2025-08-26 12:24 am

Mississippi legal challenge: beginning 1 September, we will need to geoblock Mississippi IPs

I'll start with the tl;dr summary to make sure everyone sees it and then explain further: As of September 1, we will temporarily be forced to block access to Dreamwidth from all IP addresses that geolocate to Mississippi for legal reasons. This block will need to continue until we either win the legal case entirely, or the district court issues another injunction preventing Mississippi from enforcing their social media age verification and parental consent law against us.

Mississippi residents, we are so, so sorry. We really don't want to do this, but the legal fight we and Netchoice have been fighting for you had a temporary setback last week. We genuinely and honestly believe that we're going to win it in the end, but the Fifth Circuit appellate court said that the district judge was wrong to issue the preliminary injunction back in June that would have maintained the status quo and prevented the state from enforcing the law requiring any social media website (which is very broadly defined, and which we definitely qualify as) to deanonymize and age-verify all users and obtain parental permission from the parent of anyone under 18 who wants to open an account.

Netchoice took that appellate ruling up to the Supreme Court, who declined to overrule the Fifth Circuit with no explanation -- except for Justice Kavanaugh agreeing that we are likely to win the fight in the end, but saying that it's no big deal to let the state enforce the law in the meantime.

Needless to say, it's a big deal to let the state enforce the law in the meantime. The Mississippi law is a breathtaking state overreach: it forces us to verify the identity and age of every person who accesses Dreamwidth from the state of Mississippi and determine who's under the age of 18 by collecting identity documents, to save that highly personal and sensitive information, and then to obtain a permission slip from those users' parents to allow them to finish creating an account. It also forces us to change our moderation policies and stop anyone under 18 from accessing a wide variety of legal and beneficial speech because the state of Mississippi doesn't like it -- which, given the way Dreamwidth works, would mean blocking people from talking about those things at all. (And if you think you know exactly what kind of content the state of Mississippi doesn't like, you're absolutely right.)

Needless to say, we don't want to do that, either. Even if we wanted to, though, we can't: the resources it would take for us to build the systems that would let us do it are well beyond our capacity. You can read the sworn declaration I provided to the court for some examples of how unworkable these requirements are in practice. (That isn't even everything! The lawyers gave me a page limit!)

Unfortunately, the penalties for failing to comply with the Mississippi law are incredibly steep: fines of $10,000 per user from Mississippi who we don't have identity documents verifying age for, per incident -- which means every time someone from Mississippi loaded Dreamwidth, we'd potentially owe Mississippi $10,000. Even a single $10,000 fine would be rough for us, but the per-user, per-incident nature of the actual fine structure is an existential threat. And because we're part of the organization suing Mississippi over it, and were explicitly named in the now-overturned preliminary injunction, we think the risk of the state deciding to engage in retaliatory prosecution while the full legal challenge continues to work its way through the courts is a lot higher than we're comfortable with. Mississippi has been itching to issue those fines for a while, and while normally we wouldn't worry much because we're a small and obscure site, the fact that we've been yelling at them in court about the law being unconstitutional means the chance of them lumping us in with the big social media giants and trying to fine us is just too high for us to want to risk it. (The excellent lawyers we've been working with are Netchoice's lawyers, not ours!)

All of this means we've made the extremely painful decision that our only possible option for the time being is to block Mississippi IP addresses from accessing Dreamwidth, until we win the case. (And I repeat: I am absolutely incredibly confident we'll win the case. And apparently Justice Kavanaugh agrees!) I repeat: I am so, so sorry. This is the last thing we wanted to do, and I've been fighting my ass off for the last three years to prevent it. But, as everyone who follows the legal system knows, the Fifth Circuit is gonna do what it's gonna do, whether or not what they want to do has any relationship to the actual law.

We don't collect geolocation information ourselves, and we have no idea which of our users are residents of Mississippi. (We also don't want to know that, unless you choose to tell us.) Because of that, and because access to highly accurate geolocation databases is extremely expensive, our only option is to use our network provider's geolocation-based blocking to prevent connections from IP addresses they identify as being from Mississippi from even reaching Dreamwidth in the first place. I have no idea how accurate their geolocation is, and it's possible that some people not in Mississippi might also be affected by this block. (The inaccuracy of geolocation is only, like, the 27th most important reason on the list of "why this law is practically impossible for any site to comply with, much less a tiny site like us".)

If your IP address is identified as coming from Mississippi, beginning on September 1, you'll see a shorter, simpler version of this message and be unable to proceed to the site itself. If you would otherwise be affected, but you have a VPN or proxy service that masks your IP address and changes where your connection appears to come from, you won't get the block message, and you can keep using Dreamwidth the way you usually would.

On a completely unrelated note while I have you all here, have I mentioned lately that I really like ProtonVPN's service, privacy practices, and pricing? They also have a free tier available that, although limited to one device, has no ads or data caps and doesn't log your activity, unlike most of the free VPN services out there. VPNs are an excellent privacy and security tool that every user of the internet should be familiar with! We aren't affiliated with Proton and we don't get any kickbacks if you sign up with them, but I'm a satisfied customer and I wanted to take this chance to let you know that.

Again, we're so incredibly sorry to have to make this announcement, and I personally promise you that I will continue to fight this law, and all of the others like it that various states are passing, with every inch of the New Jersey-bred stubborn fightiness you've come to know and love over the last 16 years. The instant we think it's less legally risky for us to allow connections from Mississippi IP addresses, we'll undo the block and let you know.

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rogueslayer452 ([personal profile] rogueslayer452) wrote2025-08-25 02:52 am
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How is it that we have four more months left in the year?

++ A/B/O Desire (or simply Desire The Series), the Chinese BL Omegaverse mpreg office drama, has been utterly delightful because it not only does it feature so many of the familiar tropes and going further than any other Omegaverse drama has done, the story itself is quite compelling as well. From the character drama to the complicated relationships and power dynamics, it's quite delicious with how things have been developing. I'm personally invested with Gao Tu and Shen Wenlang's whole situation. Moreover, Shen Wenlang's actor has a striking resemblance to Wang Zhuocheng (Jiang Cheng from The Untamed), that it kinda takes me out every single time I see on him screen especially when he's scowling. It's just a funny coincidence is all, especially since the actor's name is Jiang Heng which doesn't help with the distraction, lol. Either way, I'm having the time of my life with this drama.

++ Another drama that is currently airing is that I'm also having fun with is When Destiny Brings The Demon, which became kind of an unexpected surprise for me. It's a nice combination of the tone seen in Love Game in Eastern Fantasy and the heavier plot elements from Love Between Fairy And Devil. I know that the transmigration of a modern FL into a historical/fantasy world has been a common trend lately in cdramas and this is no different, however in this case the female lead is very trope-conscious, and despite just wanting to be lazy and not want to be involved with anything she figures things out and adjusts accordingly to her predicament. I adore her. Also, this is the first time I'm seeing Chen Feiyu in a role and it has me yearning for Immortality and see his Mo Ran, gdi.
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littlefics ([personal profile] littlefics) wrote in [community profile] seasonsofdrabbles2025-08-24 10:44 pm

All pinch hits claimed!

All pinch hits have been claimed! Thank you to all of our pinch hitters! This is also a great time to write treats. :)
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skygiants ([personal profile] skygiants) wrote2025-08-24 01:59 pm

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Once upon a time, I read Exiled from Camelot, the novel-length Sir Kay angstfic by Cherith Baldry that Phyllis Ann Kar politely called 'one of the half-best Arthurian novels that I have yet read,' and then launched it off to Be Experienced by [personal profile] osprey_archer and [personal profile] troisoiseaux.

Now my sins have come back upon me sevenfold, or perhaps even fifteenfold: [personal profile] troisoiseaux has discovered that, not content with the amount of hurt and comfort that she inflicted upon Kay in exiled from Camelot, Cherith Baldry has written No Less than Fifteen Sad Kay Fanfics and collected them in a volume called The Last Knight of Camelot: The Chronicles of Sir Kay.

This book has now made its way from [personal profile] troisoiseaux via [personal profile] osprey_archer on to me, along with numerous annotations -- [personal profile] osprey_archer has suggested 'drink!' every time Baldry mentions Kay's 'hawk's face,' which I have not done, as I think this would kill me -- to which I have duly added in my turn. I am proud to tell you that I was taking notes and Kay only experiences agonized manly tears nine times in the volume. That means that there are at least six whole stories where Kay manages not to burst into tears at all! And we're very proud of him for that!

The thesis of The Last Knight of Camelot seems to be that Kay is in unrequited love with Arthur; Gawain and Gareth are both in unrequited love with Kay; and everyone else is mean to Kay, all the time, for no reason. [personal profile] troisoiseaux and [personal profile] osprey_archer in their posts have both pulled out this quote which I also feel I am duty-bound to do:

"Lord of my heart, my mind, my life. All that I'll ever be. All I'll ever want.”

He had never revealed so much before.

Arthur leant towards him; there was love in his face, and wonder and compassion too, and Kay knew, his knowledge piercing like an arrow into his inmost spirit, that his love, this single-minded devotion that could fill his life and be poured out and yet never exhausted, was not returned. Arthur loved him, but not like that.

He could not help shrinking back a little.


However, I also must provide the additional context that this tender moment is immediately interrupted by the ARRIVAL OF MORGAUSE, TO SEDUCE ARTHUR, TO MAKE MORDRED, leading me to believe that Baldry is suggesting that if Kay had instead seized the chance to confidently make out with Arthur at this time, the entire doom of Camelot might have been averted. Alas! instead, Arthur dismisses Kay to go hang out with Morgause, it all goes south, Arthur blames Kay for Some Reason, and Kay spends a week on his knees in the courtyard going on hunger strike for Arthur's forgiveness until he collapses on the cobblestones and wakes up to a repentant Arthur tenderly feeding him warm milk.

If the stories in this volume are any judge, this is a pretty normal week for Kay. I also want to shout out

- the one where Lancelot and Gaheris set up a Fake Adventure for Kay to prove his courage, which destroys Kay emotionally, and kitchen-boy-squire Gareth runs after him and tries to swear loyalty to him and ask Kay to knight him, but Kay is like "you cannot AFFORD to have Kay as a friend >:(( for your knightly reputation >:(((" and Gareth shouts "you can't make me your enemy!!" and then Lancelot finds them arguing and is like 'wow, Kay is abusing this poor kitchen boy' and sweeps the lovelorn Gareth away, leaving Kay's reputation worse than before
- the one where Arthur gets kidnapped by an evil sorcerer who demands Excalibur as Arthur's ransom, and then Kay decides to try and trick the evil sorcerer with a Fake Excalibur even though Lancelot is like 'FAKE Excalibur? that's a LIE and DISHONORABLE,' and then Kay rescues Arthur from being magic-brainwashed by pure power of [brotherly?] love, and as soon as their tender embrace is over Arthur is like 'wait! you brought a FAKE Excalibur? that's a LIE and DISHONORABLE'
- the one where Kay is accused of rape as a Ploy to Discredit Arthur and has to go through a trial by ordeal where he walks over hot coals while on the verge of death from other injuries and Gawain flings himself into the fire to rescue him but it turns out it's fine because Kay is So Extremely Innocent of the Crime that they both end up clinging together bathed in golden light that heals their injuries

Again: FIFTEEN of these. Baldry is truly living her bliss and I honestly cannot but respect it. The book is going to make its way back from here whence it came, but if anyone else is really feeling a shortage of Kay Agonies in their life, let me know; I'm sure an additional stop would be welcomed as long as whoever gets it pays the annotation tax.
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forestofglory ([personal profile] forestofglory) wrote2025-08-24 10:42 am
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Media Round Up: Middles

Lately I've been saving up dramas until I'm done watching them and then posting about them here, but right now I am watching several things and I want to talk about them. I also read a couple of things and watched a movie since the last time I posted one of these.

Kill My Sins ep 1-14—This is a cdrama about a woman who is a “mind healer” in not!Tang China. (And also some dude but I don’t care that much about him) There’s a lot I like about it, it's got women who are friends with each other, excellent costumes, including some crossdressing women, a character inspired by one of my favorite historical figures (Shangguan Wan’er), and a woman ruler. The plot is a twisty revenge story, and its very tense, so I have been watching very slowly.

Content notes: harm to animals, gore, backstory featuring sexual assault, torture, self harm, domestic violence

Mu Guiying Takes Command ep 5-11— I picked this drama back up because I wanted something very unstressful to watch. It’s not really very good, but the things that are bad about it make it easy to follow. like everything is a bit exaggerated, and I'm not super invested so it's less stressful. It’s got women in armor

Justice in the Dark eps 1-4 —This show sounds like it's made in a lab to be not for me. It’s got police, violent crime, bad things happening to kids, a CEO, a romance where the couple met when one was a kid and the other was an adult, and probably some things I’m forgetting. But it's the new show that my groupwatch picked, and that’s an important event in my social calendar so I decided to watch at least the first couple of episodes. Who knows maybe I will end up liking it, it’s happened before.

It does have some really nice food details, but I wish it wasn’t so visually dark – it's hard to see a lot of the time.

Ash's Cabin, House of Flying Daggers, and A Rome of One's Own )
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littlefics ([personal profile] littlefics) wrote in [community profile] seasonsofdrabbles2025-08-24 11:17 am

Post-Deadline Pinch Hits Available!

Hi all, we have ONE post-deadline pinch hit available! PDPHs are due Friday, August 29, noon Eastern time (Countdown), though we can be flexible if needed.

If you would like to claim a pinch hit, please comment to this post with the name/number of the pinch hit you would like. Make sure to include your AO3 username! Comments are screened.

CLAIMED PH 4 - Fireworks (1947)/Succession (TV 2018), O Fantasma (2000), O Fantasma (2000)/Succession (TV 2018), The Sergeant (1968), Succession (TV 2018) )

CLAIMED PH 8 - Interview with the Vampire (TV 2022), Wicked (Movie 2024), Wind Breaker (Anime), Descendants (Disney Movies) )

CLAIMED PH 9 - Twelfth Night - Shakespeare, Fire Emblem: Fuukasetsugetsu | Fire Emblem: Three Houses, Creator's Choice of Fandom )

CLAIMED PH 10 - Something Dark and Holy Series - Emily A. Duncan, The Locked Tomb Series | Gideon the Ninth Series - Tamsyn Muir, 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game), Yellowjackets (TV) )

CLAIMED PH 11 - 逆転裁判 | Gyakuten Saiban | Ace Attorney, Miraculous Ladybug, ジョジョの奇妙な冒険 | JoJo no Kimyou na Bouken | JoJo's Bizarre Adventure, Hades (Supergiant Games Video Games), Paranormasight: The Seven Mysteries of Honjo (Visual Novel), Xenoblade Chronicles (Video Game) )

CLAIMED PH 12 - 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV), The Terror (TV 2018), Yellowjackets (TV), The Magnus Archives (Podcast), Original Work )

CLAIMED PH 13 - Storm Hawks (Cartoon), Super Robot Monkey Team Hyperforce Go!, Cookie Run (Video Game) )

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Ysabet ([personal profile] umadoshi) wrote2025-08-24 10:54 am

Weekly proof of life: media intake and some boggling over actors

Reading and watching: [personal profile] scruloose and I have made some more progress on listening to Rogue Protocol, albeit not a huge amount; this is not helped by the fact that for some reason this book is a bit glitchy on Hoopla (every now and then a few [?] words just get skipped).

I'm lumping all of my media intake together this week because I seem to be in/have been in an "only really focusing on a show or a book" phase, so I didn't start reading anything new until I'd finished watching Glass Heart. I really liked it! No fannish feelings at this time, but it was a lot of fun.

And then I watched this behind-the-scenes video, which has left me absolutely agog over the fact that none of the TENBLANK actors knew how to play their characters' instruments at all. My brain is shattered by this information. I've never been all that close to Being A Musician (and the only way in which I came at all close was as a singer), so I'm not looking at what they're doing with a professional eye and I realize that it may look rather less convincing to people who actually do play those instruments, but.

[ETA for badly-needed clarification: It's not that the main cast in this show are faking playing the instruments. It's that none of them are musicians at all, and they learned to play the specific material for the show well enough to visually pass not only as being able to play but as being very good (the male lead is explicitly a musical genius), with full shots of them doing bits of it rather than having body doubles or clever cuts or anything, AND doing some pretty heavy-lifting acting at the same time. (What I don't know is whether their performances pass as looking professional to actual professional musicians, but one of the supporting cast is an actual singer and seems pretty impressed with it.)]

(I've now showed [personal profile] scruloose and Ginny and Kas the opening of episode 8, which is a flashback to two of the characters meeting after one sees the other playing. If you have Netflix and want a quick non-spoilery look at what this looks like, check that bit out. The guy in the hoodie is the male lead, played by Satoh Takeru, who also executive produced this show. Having seen him pull off playing Himura Kenshin plausibly, I should perhaps not be this dumbfounded by watching him play a musician, but here we are.)

Anyway! Since finishing that drama, I've read KJ Charles' Any Old Diamonds and Jordan L. Hawk's The Forgotten Dead and am now reading These Burning Stars (Bethany Jacobs). I also currently have a non-fiction read on the go: Warmth: Coming of Age at the End of Our World (Daniel Sherrell).

And cutting back to watching things, I've also now seen a few episodes (three?) of K-foodie meets J-foodie on Netflix, in which two passionate foodies, one from Japan and one from Korea, eat a lot of delicious things together. The bit I've seen has been entirely in Japan, but I assume some episodes (or possibly the second season?) will be in Korea.
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Jack ([personal profile] finch) wrote2025-05-24 12:23 am

speaking of ocd

Here’s the post about scrupulosity!

OCD is best known for germaphobia and hoarding and religious scrupulosity, all of which I’ve dealt with in varying degrees, but I think it’s less well-known that religious scrupulosity is basically a form of moral scrupulosity, and that it can take other shapes as well.

Sidebar: scrupulosity as a word just means an obsessive, overwhelming anxiety/fear of being bad, for whatever bad means to you. You can probably guess why it often hijacks religious beliefs, and why it loves to square dance with intrusive thoughts.

In practice, this means constantly feeling like I’m not doing enough: for new people, for friends, for mutuals, for the fandom as a whole. I want to be welcoming and encouraging. I want to read and chat with new writers so they write more! I want to keep up with my friends’ fics! I want to read other fics just because they look interesting! And of course if I’m reading, I want to be commenting and live reacting and reccing on tumblr! I want to gift drabbles and fanart and reaction fics to people so they know how awesome they and their work are!

(also I want to write my own fics and draw my own art, and I’m really not good at pushing my own work because I’m always fighting the idea that it’s selfish to want people to read my work.)

There’s a reason Mr Rogers is so prominent on my ancestor altar, y'all, and it’s because I want to be a good person so fucking bad. It’s because in my heart and soul there’s a part of me that’s constantly certain that I’m a fucked up, horrible monster and if people like me it’s only because I’m fooling them.

I know I maybe over-identify with Xaden, okay? He knows he’s going to be the bad guy for a lot of people no matter what he does, and he still does everything he can, and he gets shit on for it. I think about his comments in Samara, about how people are fuckheads to him but he doesn’t mind because they go easier on Garrick.

One of the things that’s come up when I write Xaden more than once is projecting my own insecurities onto him. The certainty that he can never do enough. The fear that he really is the monster people see when they look at him, and no amount of… well, no amount of anything is going to fix that.

There’s a reason he’s fascinated by Violet telling him he’s a good person.

I really, really struggle when people talk about how Xaden is a terrible person and an awful friend and everyone else would be better off without him because I feel like that’s true of me too.

Disclaimer: I know that’s not the same thing, and people are entitled to their interpretations of the characters! This is just me talking about what goes on in my head. The ways my brain lies to me ultimately have nothing to do with the way people write fic. If it doesn’t latch on to this, it would (and does) latch onto something else.

I still don’t have a point. I’m just finding it helpful to write this stuff out and work through it, and some people seem to have found the first post helpful to read so! Let’s be vulnerable.